Day 14: T-10

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

There are children screaming in the hallway. I'm not exactly sure why. To my knowledge, there are no 4 year olds giving birth... :) On the flip side, today I have heard labors begin and babies cry. I hear newborns cry often (after all, this is L&D) but I cant help but think, "God, I really want to hear that... Please...". Not that I want my babies to be miserable and unhappy, but that precious sound of lungs getting in air and working full force. I want that.

This is a big day. This is my last double digit before the first goal! 10 more days! I have been here 2w and we now have 9 days and 7.5 hours left to 24w!!! (Who's counting though...) Wow... Tomorrow we will really be in the single digits. It feels like yesterday at we were so far away. As was my optimism, thanks to my cervix and contractions. But we are now a week without contractions and 2 u/s with a behaving cervix!

Last night, Bobby decided that he had cooperated long enough with the doctors and nurses (well, I guess he really decided that with the u/s tech when he wouldnt stay still for a picture). They were late coming in for my monitoring and, instead of 9pm, it was 9:30pm. So, the young nurse starts looking for HBs. Maya- right there. No problem. Bobby- nothing. We hear the moving, there's kicking, but no steady tones. Now, perhaps had I not had the u/s, I would have been worried but I wasnt. I knew he was fine and just ornery. She spent half an hour and kept pushing on my belly to try and get him. Nothing. Finally, the pressure of her and of him headbutting my cervix was too much and I asked her to stop. I said that I was feeling a lot of uncomfy pressure and she apologized and took the monitors off. Then the TOCO came on and I had an hour of no contractions! (Yay!) At 11, Peter went and told them that an hour had passed (normally, we wait for them, but we were both utterly exhausted and wanted to sleep. We usually hit the hay around 10). A different nurse came in and was going to attempt the tones. I shook my head and say "No". She kind of looked at me funny and, as nice as I could, I said that based on his position, I was having more pressure than normal and the pressing on my belly made it worse. I also explained that I'd seen him happy, normal, and with HBs in the 140s 6 hours before and didnt feel like a second round of tones were going to do much, especially when he was moving around and okay. She said that was fine and left. Our regular nurse came back in and removed the TOCO and we went to bed. I felt bad, as though I should have just sucked it up, but honestly, I didnt want the pressure to cause the cerclage to buckle and my belly was sore from all the pushing.

But Bobby must have worn himself out because he slept all night. Maya... Not so much. :) Today, they've both been active little ones. It's like a rock concert in my belly. Lots of crowd surfing. :)

I've been really tired yesterday and today. I think I am finally getting used to my surroundings and starting to settle in. I took a nap yesterday and one today. It was nice. Helps the day go by...

A special thank you... I have received emails and letters from around the world from people I have never met outside of our virtual existences. The support, from people we know in real life and in the blogosphere is overwhelming. It truly has helped me during this pregnancy in untold ways and I am grateful. Everyone talks about the Internet as a way to get burned, to get hurt, etc, and we all know that that is true. But few people ever discuss the flip side. How you can help and be helped. I am so thankful for your prayers and your concern and your support. The cards and emails lift my spirits and I feel so un-alone on his journey right now. It is so hard when you feel that your grief isnt understood; yet, this blog has given me the knowledge that, in so many ways, it is understood. Just as our joy is.

One more day... Folks. We've gotten one more beautiful day. May tomorrow be as sweet. :)

14 comments:

Eyes of a Child Photography said...

So happy to hear things are going well my prayers to you your husband and those precious little ones!

~ Chrissi

Bluebird said...

Good for you for sticking up for yourself and what feels "right"!! And congratulations on one more day. Counting down with you. . .

Catherine W said...

May tomorrow be as sweet.
And the day after.
And many, many more to come.
Until November.
Although I suppose I would settle for October if they really, really can't wait to meet their mommy and daddy.

The image of Bobby and Maya crowd surfing around made me smile.

Just Breathe said...

I love reading your updates. Glad to hear that you are getting settled in. I like the good news each day and I pray that God continues with answered prayers.

djsmom2007 said...

congratulations on more great news. Praise God.

Mommy (You can call me OM) said...

Michele,
Your beautiful attitude and spirit simply shine through my computer. I am thankful you asked them to stop with the pushing. I would have been a nutcase, but you persevered. Good for you. :)

Peace, my friend. Still praying out here. :)

Alison said...

When asked what it felt like to be pregnant with two active babies I would respond "Basically, I'm a human-bounce-house!" Isn't it fun!?

Kate said...

May all your posts continue to be this positive and full of good news. Amen.

Carrie said...

WOO HOO! These updates are music to my ears. :) Go babies, go! So glad you are getting lots of support, cards and mail and things to keep your spirits up.

You are such a rock star, and those twins are totally uterus surfing!

Big hugs!

cheryllookingforward said...

Hooray for another good day! And good job on standing up for yourself!

Anne said...

It is tomorrow now (as I write this from the days of countdown) and you are now in single digits! I am so happy for you!! Nine more days and then it will be a countup for each day as the babies are getting stronger inside you. Hugs.

Sprogblogger said...

Hoping for many many more hospitalized days for you before you hear those babies crying healthily!

(Apologies for not commenting earlier in your hospital stay - I thought I'd already added you to my Reader, and figured you were simply not up to posting. Then I finally made the connection between the Michelle who comments on my posts and you and went digging around in my Google reader. Nope. Nothing there. I'm a dope!)

Your cheering section in Brooklyn is rahrahrahing with crossed fingers and toes. Sounds like things are looking great. May everything continue just as it has been!

Stace said...

It cracks me up to hear about Bobby not cooperating for the hospital monitoring, The was our Colby. Connor was always right there, but Colby was always moving away when we tried to hook him up. :) As frustrating as it was for the nurses, I always found it a comfort. :) Hang in there.

A n T said...

So glad to hear that everything is going so perfect! Praise God! Can't wait for the next great news post!