Day 47: T-5

Monday, September 7, 2009

Happy Labor Day! (I keep telling the babies whenever I hear that phrase that it does NOT mean "happy birthday" for them!)

This morning's HB scan was the best we've had in the last 13 days. He actually had 5 periods of nearly 1 min each where his HB was completely normal. No arrythymia, no missed beats, and a normal range. It was wonderful to hear. In between, he had his seconds of normalacy as well, but we were really impressed with the long periods. We still have a long way to go, but I am really hoping and praying that he is growing out of this. Dr. B. came and talked to Peter and I about how he thinks it is going, but explained that the MFMs are the best source of info on this specific issue. He said that, right now, we will be having 2 MFM scans to check the babies' hearts (plus one scan will include a cervical measurement) and then the daily BPPs with the resident on duty, until this dissolves or it seems like no new information is being gathered.

The babies are both very active these last few days, especially right now. Cravings are back in full swing. Can we cheeseburgers???

I'm finding that I more and more times where I just want to be alone and reflect on our children... I think of Nicholas, Sophia, and Alexander and just want to remember each second and feel them over again. They dont always bring tears, although sometimes they do. It's more as though, as this pregnancy progresses, I need the time to have them all here with me. I dont know if that makes sense or not. I know that I cant go back in time and have my cervix play nicely and things end differently. But I still feel like so much of my pregnancies with them was taken away... That their lives here was cut so terribly short... That I need the time I have right now to just focus on them and give them life in the moment. Like I said... Probably doesnt make sense.

Because I am obsessed with my goals today...
5d to 28w!
2w5d to 30w and my shower!
4w5d to our 32w goal!
8w5d to full term at 36w and my cerclage removal!
Total: 61 days to go...

It's crazy as these days get fewer and fewer. Sometimes it seems like yesterday that we came into the hospital and, as I type in the day in the title line, it seems crazy that we are at almost 50. Assuming 36w, that will be 108 days in the hospital. I keep telling myself that I would rather I spend 108 days in the hospital than Bobby and Maya spend even one day in the NICU. I realize that because of this heart issue that we will be here a few days after birth no matter what and that they babies will be monitored, but you all know what I mean.

Well, it is that special blood sugar time... Seems like it always is, doesnt it? (But, on a good note, my scores were decent yesterday and this morning!)

And... For your viewing pleasure...

24 comments:

Cassandra said...

I've been having the same thought about Labor Day. Happy not-going-into-Labor Day!

Hooray for the good heart scan!

Krystal said...

You have a cute baby bump, and a hansome husband to go along with it!!!

Enjoy your labor day!!! THAT DOES NOT MEAN BIRTHDAY KIDS!!!

momto558 said...

Great pictures!!Happy Labor Day:)
Hugs, Michele

Alyssa said...

Happy Labor Day! (I keep telling the babies whenever I hear that phrase that it does NOT mean "happy birthday" for them!)

That's what I'm saying too!!!!

Anonymous said...

aw, i'm so glad that bobby is doing so well! your bump pictures are so cute! -elisabeth

Carrie said...

HA! I keep thinking that I am scared the babies will hear all this "Labor Day" talk and get the wrong idea.

So glad all is well, and your goals seem more and more attainable each and every day. Many loves to those cutie pants twins inside. :)

Just Breathe said...

Thank you for the belly shot of your two precious babies. Praying for your 36 weeks of keeping them in that belly. I am getting really excited. I look so forward to your posts. Take care my special friend. Wish I could send you some IN-N-OUT!

Okay so I type the wish on the burger and the word verification is: yessess

Ms. J said...

Those photos got me all choked up!

Busted Tube said...

I love the photos!

Thank goodness for the good monitoring sessions! Way to go Bobby!
I love reading your posts and I love that you're managing to stay so strong & inspirational!

B said...

What a tummy! You must feel proud.

Michelle said...

Awww...your husband is so cute, mine never adored my belly the way yours does. You can tell on his face that his children are his world. God bless and we're cheering for you to reach your goals.

mekate said...

Awww indeed, such sweet photos!
Great news on Bobby's heart. I love the periods of normalcy, I hope hope hope that means this will simply even out, and it must be the sweetest possible thing to hear.

thinking of you
warmly,
Kate

Reba said...

what a beautiful belly full of babies!!

Michelle said...

Happy Labor day to you... but please don't go into it.:) So glad things are going well!

Stace said...

I love the pictures. They're beautiful. I'm so happy for you and proud of you (in a reading about you sort of way) that you have gone through so much and that you are still so incredibly strong for your babies. They are some lucky babies!!!! :) Crossing my fingers for you always!

Jessica said...

what great news on such a great "labor" day. Cute baby bump!

Kate said...

Glad to hear it was a good day.

Hoping and praying for you to make it to the ultimate finish line.

Lynda said...

I love the pics!! Congrats my friend!

djsmom2007 said...

Michelle, I want to say that your wanting all your babies with you is normal. I had a David Joseph day too. It was a day of family gathering, yet a day that he wasn't here. I hadn't had a day like that in a while, so I do believe the pregnancy definitely adds to it. Wanting all your children together is natural. Great news on Bobby's heart. Praying that continues.

Donna said...

Beautiful belly!!!

I know exactly what you mean about needing to spend time with all of your children. I've felt like that a lot lately too. Take all the time you need to "be" with them and remember.

Not long to go now!!!

Leah said...

I'm so happy that today's ultrasound was so good. YAY! And you are so close to your goals.
:-D

Never forgetting Gregory said...

Great picture! I can't wait for you to have these babies alive and healthy so you can experience some true smiles. It has been such a long hard road for you. The anxiety is a lot to deal with. Hugs.

Anonymous said...

Awww..cute Michelle. I check every day to see how you are doing and am so glad when there is good news--as there is on this entry.
Hugs,
Anne

Catherine W said...

What a beautiful photograph xo