Goodbye 2009

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Wow... New Year's Eve... 2009 is coming to an end.

It seems really nuts that the year is already over. I feel like January sort of skipped me by because I was in a fog of grief. I had just gone back to work after Alexander's maternity leave and I was heartbroken and stressed. February came and we saw Dr Lee and lost another baby to miscarriage when little D didnt implant. March came and we conceived Bobby and Maya. April brought some pink tinting (which led me to think I was losing them), the ultrasound that confirmed two babies, Easter when we shared our news with our families, and when I gave my notice at work. May brought my last day of work and the cerclage, along with bedrest. June was my 29th birthday and I lost my mucus plug; it was also the month that we passed the 16th and 17th weeks, which brought so many thoughts and comparisons to Nicholas and Alexander. July brought us the gestational birthday of Sophia and had me admitted to the hospital. It was the start of the daily countdowns to our milestones... 24w... 26w... the 28w that we were so close to... August=24w; need I say more on how special that was? September saw the out-of-womb exit of Bobby and Maya and had a wonderful baby shower. We celebrated their first Halloween, Maya doubled her birth weight, Bobby crossed the 5lb mark, and the twins were moved in the NICU's Transitional Care Nursery in October. In addition to their first Thanksgiving, the twins both came home, Maya had her eye surgery, and we celebrated and remembered Alexander on his first birthday in November; we passed by our 36w "twin EDD" and cerclage removal date. And, finally, December saw a bevy of first holidays (St Nick's, Solstice, Christmas...); we lived through our EDD and dealt with Maya choking and going to the hospital. We had our first snowfall of winter. I had the first day in almost 2 years where I wasnt in agony when realizing that Nick, Sophie, and Alex are dead. Fleeting, yes, but nonetheless one day.

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Peter and I began our life together in 1998... 11 years ago... I love him so much. Here's to 111 more years!

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And so, I leave you with this. Bliain úr faoi shéan is faoi mhaise duit. Happy New Year. May it be prosperous and joyous. May your heart be mended. May your family- especially your children, living and beyond living- be close to you. May you always walk in sunshine and never want for anything. May angels rest their wings outside your door. May you have the hindsight to know where you've been, the foresight to know where you are going, and the insight to know when you are going too far. And may God keep you and yours safe. In 2010 and always.

14 comments:

Mandi said...

Happy New Year! Enjoy your miracles. I know their older siblings watch over them and you always!

AKD said...

Wow, what an eventful year! I hope that 2010 brings all of you such wonderful things! Hugs to your entire brood!

Queenie. . . said...

The last paragraph is so lovely. I hope 2010 brings you nothing but sheer joy and happiness.

Katie said...

Beautifully said.

And to you, my dear friend.

Donna said...

I wish the same for you and your family! Happy new year! You have been through so much this year. I hope you can relax and enjoy things a little more next year.

nikki wood said...

Happy New Year! Praying that 2010 brings us all nothing but blessings!

P.S. If it's a girl Chris wants to name her Maya. I was like awwww that's my friend's baby! Hehe!

Just Breathe said...

What a beautiful saying. Thank you for the wishes.

strongblonde said...

Happy New Year!! (found your blog through Andrea's--our kids were born 10 days apart).

Here's to a great 2010 for all of us!

sonja said...

I really enjoyed your 2009 recap. I hope 2010 is full of blessings for you and your family.

Thanks for your suggestion on the Bolthouse Farms protein shakes. I have already finished 1 of the big vanilla chai latte ones! Do you think it's okay that I picked the one with primarily soy protein? I wasn't sure but thought I'd prefer that flavor.

Also, thanks so much for your offer to help however you can. I am still hanging in there (all though it's definitely getting rougher), but I promise to let you know if you can help once I reach the inevitable bedrest stage. And of course I don't mind two babies in the backseat -- are you kidding me? I would be honored and thrilled to meet little Bobby and Maya.

I may also email you after our first MFM appointment if I have any questions/concerns (for example, if I have to get a cerclage -- sounds soooo scary). Your advice is so unbelievably helpful.

*hugs*

Mommy (You can call me OM) said...

Happy New Year to you, Michele. May it be full of joy and peace with happy memories of your babies. They are all with you.

Peace, my friend.

Jessica said...

2009 was such a year for you...may 2010 be all that you hope for and more. *hugs* I am glad that 2009 has ended well for you and your family.

Barb said...

Lovely. Happy New Year. :)

Bluebird said...

What a year, honey! So happy with you for so many bright spots. Here's wishing for many more to come.

one-hit_wonder said...

May 2010 be a year of wonderful firsts.