These Eyes...

Friday, January 8, 2010


Do you think this woman had any idea of the hurt she'd go through? What a difference a few years can make to the person that lives behind our eyes...

Hurting tonight... Remembering... Wishing...

Holding on tight to the miracles and blessings I have.

15 comments:

K said...

**hugs**

I do the same sometime. Look at my pictures, my wedding pictures, the big innocent grins.... I am amazed at that girl because she is not me today.

I am sorry you are hurting. I appreciate that you speak about it honestly though. Just because we have blessings and appreciate them very very much, doesn't mean that we don't miss what we lost and hurt for what we had.

Sophie said...

You can tell the before pictures can't you? It's the eyes. The smile doesn't quite reach it no matter how big the smile is.

I find it hard to look at "before" photos, and impossible to look at "now" photos. I tend to look at the "during" ones most of all.

xx

Glenda said...

NO! I don't think we could ever have predicted the roads our lives would take. God has His reasons and I know it was partly to draw me closer to Himself.

Barbara said...

Hugs and wishing I could take the hurt away.

xxx

Jessica said...

*hugs* thinking of your babies with you.

Terri said...

Love you.

Dream Seeker said...

Ah, thinking of you...whoever knows what the future holds? Though you didn't know it at the time, you were building up vast reserves of strength of love to cope with the rocky road ahead. That blissful moment on your wedding day looks like it might be something that could sustain you for a long long time...that's true love. Brave Michele x

sonja said...

I can definitely see that your smile was full of innocence and totally carefree. I am sorry that you have had to endure so much, but I do suspect that when you smile now you have the ability to emanate so much compassion and empathy for others who have endured what you have, and there is a quiet beauty and mature, pain-tinged grace in that.

Of course I wish with all my heart that you hadn't had to endure such intense sadness and could still have that same innocent smile ... I wish you weren't hurting ...

You and all of your babies are in my prayers.

AKD said...

Remembering and wishing with you, Michele. Hugs and love.

Just Breathe said...

Not in a million years did she know. She didn't know the strength that was inside of you either. I am so sorry that you are hurting.
((HUGS))

Catherine W said...

What a beautiful woman you were then and are still.

It is heartbreaking how much we can change in such a short space of time. I know that I will never be the same again either.

I'm so sorry for all that you, Peter and your precious family have been through. I wish I could turn back time and protect you all somehow. xo

Once A Mother said...

i was just saying to my hubs this morning how i no longer recognize myself in pictures. i look old. tired. distant. this post really hit home for me.

thinking of you peacexx

Allison (Ali) said...

If I would have known I am not sure What I would have done, but I wouldnt give the five months I had Cadynce in my womb for anything even though my hearts broken because we lost her.

None of us would have chosen this path, and we have to appreciate the little things that we can when we can.

~~hugs~~

Fran said...

I know my friend...you have suffered a lot certainly and no imagination could have been near reality. I am so happy for you now and for your miracles, I know your eyes are smiling again. Love, Fran

Never forgetting Gregory said...

I agree. I almost wish I could go back and tell myself to prepare for the worst. But at least I got to be innocent for a while. Hugs to you as you are missing your babies. =(