Pregnancies

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Because I'm kind of anal (and have the mind of an 18 month old and cant remember anything), I keep pretty detailed lists about things...  Lists about what the kids are doing at their quarter ages so that I can answer questions from their doctor...  A "patient information sheet" for myself.  I actually got the idea from my in-laws, who have one for each of them by their front door, in the event there is an emergency and the EMTs need to know something NOW.  I hadn't updated mine since Alexander was born and died (so, I'm that that organized).  But, since I have my midwifery appointment this afternoon, I decided that I'd better update it, since she's bound to ask some questions since I havent seen her since December of 2007!

There was the new address... new insurance... easy, easy.  Then, came the section of medications.  Talk about a change!  That section went from 9 lines to 3!  (daily vitamin, vitamin d, and synthroid for my Hashimoto's).  Wow!  And then... "Pregnancy History"...

Once I was finished updating that section, it was quite a shock.  7.... 7 pregnancies.
(this is abbreviated but, you get the idea...)
#1... spontaneous conception...miscarriage...
#2... FSH injections... twins... live births... died... pPROM... IC...
#3... miscarriage...
#4...FSH injections...live birth...pPROM... placental abruption... IC...
#5...miscarriage...
#6...FSH injections...twins...16w bedrest...live births...27w5d...emergency c-section...mastitis
#7...spontaneous conception...miscarriage...

7 pregnancies... 9 babies... 2 living children...


I know this all, of course, but seeing it in black and white... It really gives the cold, hard fact that my body is shitty when it comes to getting, staying, and being pregnant.

And that really sucks.

8 comments:

one-hit_wonder said...

Seeing it in black and white is something else. XXX

one-hit_wonder said...

Seeing it in black and white is something else. XXX

nikki wood said...

I feel the same way, like why oh why body can't you just do what it's suppossed to and give me lots of healthy babies!

Shell said...

Michele, I admire you for all the pregnancies you have been through. I don't know how you have done it but I think you are amazing and especially for sharing. Thank you so much.

Hillary said...

I hear you Sister! My percentages aren't looking so great either. It makes me very bitter and mad. I usually have to stop and take breath and look around me at the two I do have and be glad for them instead of what I'm missing...
You are one tough Momma to keep going. I haven't know/read you for long but I'm super proud of who you are and how far you've come!

Dana said...

That does really suck. Althought we live each day knowing what we have been through, there is something chilling about seeing it in black and white.

Deni said...

Well, first pat yourself on the back for having that med list so short--you are kicking tail there! And I feel you on that one, seeing how crappy your womb is on paper sucks, my medical stuff at the OB says 'recurrent abortion'. I HATE that word and don't understand why they can't change that dadgum terminology!!!!

Emerging Butterfly said...

Thank you for this...truly.