Less than 4 weeks from now, we will be where Bobby and Maya were born. Less than 100 days from now, she will be here. At this point, we are looking at a 38-39 week delivery. So, early May. I've already started clearing my schedule of things; most everything is over in April for me, just because, as much as I 'think positively', I also can't shake fully my history.
But in many ways, I choose daily to let go of the fear. As Michael's pregnancy showed me and Lucas's reinforced, there is not much that I can do, outside of live.
And so live we do. Each day, every day, moving forward until the day that this very special little girl enters the next phase of her journey, here on the outside, with us.